enter my world..!! [ chiCken 0ut? ]

giving up

2005-02-02T06:29:00.000-08:00

i wanna get a new blog.
a new blog where by
NOBODY reads it.
except me.
me me n me only.
i dun wanna pple to noe my new blog.
mayb only 2 trusted frens.
i've make myself clear.
get it?

loading... 100%..

2005-01-20T16:22:00.000-08:00

ar..shut up..loading wad?

bleah. oo..i gt back my A maths results!

*waving e paper high up*

u must b tinkin i'm happy.

oh well.. actually quite lAhh..

5/10 -tat's wad i gt. boo.

kk..5 marks flew away..

*lazy 2 catch it back*

ooo wEll..thinking day banner is gonna b completed.

yeAhhh..!! finally. however, it looks kana messy.

now guides ish on every thurs n fri.

met e sec1..!! geee:x

* u beta join guides..or else..*

they're quite shy.

well.. but they will sooon b noisy lye...

US. *smile*

COH. gong xi yan ling!! wEeeee.

2 me, who eva becums CL orACL, doesnt really matters much.

the most impt thingy is 2 ENJOY n hae FUN.

yes. i wanna noe wad's goin on. ps.

i'm nt trying 2 b a kpo here.

i'm trying 2 care.

do u c my intention, wan ting?

wanting:" hanping, u dunno anything, jus stay out of tis!"

seriously, i was hurt.

i jus kept quiet..n walked n left e sch.

suppose 2 wake up at 5am todae.

gt a MISSION.

well, gt up at 7.30am.

DUH!! okok..

mum promise me 2 let me go out.

yeah.

arhh..leg numb now!

lots n lots n lots of _____

frm me 2 u all peeps!

rockz on~

news news n more news

2005-01-18T06:44:00.000-08:00

e headline news:

i gt another new wife.

let's wc... ChLoE!!

okok.i'm still wif charmaine.

yeA~.. lesbian rules!

cummin' up nx..

e4 n e5 no neeeed change claSs..!!

yeS!!

i CAN bully crystalene!

3rdly, i made benj confess tat he's jealous.

geeee :x

lastly, i CAN do A maths test!!

thk god:)

thinking day banner is half way completed!!

sad news 4 tonite:

on e fone last nite..n flooded my room!

*oh cheer up*

my bike made me mad. real mad.

ended up pushing e bike back backwards!

coz of e front tyre arrrr..!

shocking news:

wad chloe told me yest lorr. i'm still shock.

i'm manage 2 escape taf. arrh. i am fat.

tok back at osama.

stupid news:

house practice tomolo.

*look at e sky*

read e class timetable wrongly.

gt chem bk instead of phy.

SOS news:

i need jian fei pills.

i need slping pills.

i need pple 2 entertain me.

me: " pple, sCREAm!!"

pple:" aRrHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!"

u get wad i mean?

diao~

wad's wrong wif me??

2005-01-15T20:56:00.000-08:00

can sumbody tell me wad's wrong wif me....??

i kept tinking abt wad JEr told me...

i juz hae e urge 2 pick up e fone n called benj.

but den again..i beta nt call.

i dun wanna betray a fren or hurt benj or smt...

or worst still lose a fren.

jus tat i'm rather confuse bahh.

i dunno wad 2 do.

i wanna noe y benj said those words.

he's jealous?

pretending nt 2 b jealous?

wad?

wad's wrong wif me..?

i kept tinking abt JEr every now n den..

i lye him? dun tink so..

itchy hands pressed 6785852*.

leave tis 2 god bahhhhh..

weeeex

2005-01-15T06:23:00.000-08:00

yes. today ish borin'

slp e whole dae.

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

yawn.

gee. n study n study n study.

gee.

maths make me mad.

well.. i'm gettin stupid.

i'm goin swimming tomolo!!

yeahhh!!

n i gt a new partner..

(since now crystalene ish goin 2 e5)

Cassandra is joinin e e4 family.

he he

can u feel e pain in my heart..?

2005-01-14T05:21:00.000-08:00

can u feel how i feel?
life's unfair.
crystalene ish goin 2 3e5
leaving me alone in 3e4.
the sch see no diff btween e4 n e5.
but, 2 us as students..
of coz, e4 ish a beta choice to most.
wad's e point of shifting classes during e 2nd week.
everything ish fine!
juz bcoz they want e4 to be pure phy class n e5 2 b pure bio class,
den.. they make such a stupid decision.
life's unfair.
i made sum new frens tis 2 weeks.
but, now wad? they r shifting us lye mahjong
w/o even askin 4 our opion.
frens r veri impt pple.
did find sum sec1 gals who r interested in joinin guides.
wad else 2 sae..??
guides juz rAwks. e activities rawks. e whole company rawks.
i lov guiding life.
get a life. join guides.
did enjoy myself sumhow.
saw chloe. she cried. bcoz she's goin 2 e5 toooo.
tried comforting her.
hope tat she's fine how.
JEr told me smt..
e truth hurts.
i wld rather 2 pretend to hear nth.
ur hp bills..$400..bcoz of a
BITCH here.
nt worth it.
althou' i cld do nth. now i finally
understand y u cancel ur line.
it was bcoz of me.
me. me. n me.
blame it on me.
sorry is all i cld sae.
ps dun hide e truth frm me in e future.
n JEr ps listen 2 tat person's
advice. stop hanging ard wif me.
ps. i dun wanna b responsible 4 ur fone bills.
i'm smarter now.
i dun mind chatting online.
but fone calls, sms is a nono.can u feel e pain?

the SEC 1.. cAmpfire..!

2005-01-13T08:58:00.000-08:00

tis g0nna b l0ng~
wAnna noe wad happen 2 me yest?
okAy. i shall tell you only.
you = my blog.
so other pple..pretend u didnt read tis part>
i nearly gt Slap.
e hp sceen cover fell off.
n SHE tot i was e one who took it out.
oh ps. i dun hae itchy hands.
excuse me. i hate being accused.
n bcoz of tat... SHE nearly slap me.
over a stupid little issue.
pple cant tink. i pity HER lots.
i'm refering to my mum.
SHE is oh so mighty great.
-took e fone 2 e room.
-scolded my fren.
she's juz so sweet.
yest i taught e 1n7 to sing e campfire songs..
n lata took 1e4. n7 still nt bad lah.
BUT 1e4.. aiyah.. AM I Entertaing myself.
i guess so. they REFUSE 2 open their golden mouth..(some did)
as if once they OPEN their mouth GOLD BARS will fall out!!
excuse me. pple r here motivativing u. yet..
u noe wad ish appreaciate?
okay.. u dun.
so ps learn frm ME.
*cough* i'm a bad example. find sum1 else..
wad abt..er..aiyah. dunno la. bleah.
did i hear somebody say :" look on e bright side?"
okay. * i looook*
hmmm..okay. they r SEC1 after all.
i must b understanding.
i must b understanding.
i must b understanding.
i must b understanding.
i must b understanding.
i am understanding..
i didn scold them lye hell..unlike e tchers n SC pple.
eshlyn scolded smt lye :" hot rite? hide under e drain.."
smt liddat.
"huh" i wondered.
yesh.. it wad fucking hot in e field.
may i noe WHO choose tat spot?
* oh nobody wants 2 admit*
fine~..
it was mic's bdae. didn hae e tym 4 her.
*feel so guilty*
wad abt a movie treat? some other days when i'm free.
oh well haven tok abt todae.
PE was FUN!! how i wish someone cld accompany me run EVERYDAY.
anybody. WHO wans??
*wahh.. no hands? so unfrenly..wad kind of fren?*
eng lesson was..BORING. i tried entertaining myself. *retarded*
osama: wad is a thesaurus?
me: a name of a dinosaur?
osama: what ish e answer 4 e 2nd blank?
me: how?? why?? dunno..
osama: what.
me: what what?
osama: what?
me: what what what??!! ( e ans ish.. "what")
osama: how do u ride a bike? wif 2 legs on e peddle.
me: up-per-den?
osama: u will fell rite?
me: oh ya..!
ipw veri fun. yea. games. team building games.
tat ABC game. yea. we r quite creative.
A - atm card
J - junk
N - neo print
X - x-factor. ( a pic of jay) muahaha.
den we had 2 form e longest line.
althou' our grp didn win anything..
but.. we had fun rite? yea~
guides straight after sch.
miss lunch again. yea~ can lose weight.
BUT i'm nt..bleah.
busy wif e thinking day banner.
finally hae e pic n wording on e banner.
it's tough job okay. make e transparancy.
hae 2 use e OHP 2 shine on e board. use sticky tape tape e banner.
use chalk n trace.
i'm soooo tired. i began 2 seee stars.
so i took a rest.
den..hae 2 change 2 FULL GUIDES U..
helped out in e back drop banner tooo.
was kewl huh? yaya.
dinner was chicken rice.
li ling brief me thru' e whole campfire thingy again..
coz i'm e prog co. bleah.
must get things done.
i dun tink i did my veri BEST..(tis ish my 1st tym)
but..there's sure 2 b improvement nx tym.
let's wait n c.
geee. sec1 r quite creative after all.
jus look at how they dress their so called " models"
wAhhh.. nt bad lahh.. i must sae.
of coz.. guides were doin great too.
e singing..n everythingy!! they jus rawks.
i'm sorry.
WE jus rAwks worx.
i lov campfire.
had fun.
oh.. i saw nawira..jasmine..yi rui..barron..
wAhh haha. reAlly do miss ex sec4.
okay. i miss u. so u must miss me in return.
fair rite? lol.
dots.. dad came n fetch me frm sch.
i didn ask him so.
there's 10 miss call 4 me.
gosh..
i didn bother 2 call them.
bleahh.
it's 1.44 am now.
do u noe y i'm awake?
coz..my chi holidae hw.
it's due tomolo. fri.
die. n i left..
1 newspaper cutting.
i dun free lye doin.
i'm tired.
i'm lazy.
chi EeeeeeeeEeeeee..
a maths.. i'm preparing to fail.
anyway, i'm tinking of taking an extra subj.
which is.. art.
art. shd i take art.
juz in case i fail a maths.
hey wait. will i fail? i wont rite??
yeA~ try my best la.
mon a maths test le worx..
must pass. MUST PASS.
somebody teach ME maths. i gonna go mad.
heyy.. " go mad?"
hehee.. my sec1 camp theme..wahhh..2 yrs ago..
time really flies..
*catch them lah*
i miss crystalene. COME BACK!!
i miss bullying u.
i'm a big bully. la la la.
gonna b another busy day tomolo.
BUILD STRUCTURE!!
out door cooking..!!
*zip* shut my gap.
let's wait n c ..
oooooo.
i'm so excited.
yesh. i'm tired. i'm nt a robot okay?
okay.. cyah in lala land.
*lala land ish purple in colour*
nitez~ muackz!

baddie mood

2005-01-12T05:05:00.000-08:00

SHUT

LAH

GET

LOST

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

swimming~

2005-01-09T04:02:00.000-08:00

yea. swimmin' wAh wEeeeeEe

i LOV swimmin'!!

swam 20 laps in 1hr only.

deep pool of coz..!

hiaz. i wished i didn giv up GOLD

during pri6 or else i'll do much beta now..!!

nt reAlly regrettin' it la.

wad's there 2 regret anyway?

btw, i'm recordin all these down

so tat when i get my NYAA silver,

i cld quickly jot it down there

under "physical" tat part lahh.

my breast stroke suxx.. so slow.

bleah.. my free style ish much much much faster.

butterfly leh? i dunno how 2 swim!!

who ish willing 2 teach me?

*wahh.. nobody. eee..u all so unfrenly de~ *

muahaha. today quite gd mood.

dunno y lehh.. hehe!!

oh no..my room is so messy.

i beta pack up..b4 mum starts NAGGIN'

bleah. eng hw haven touch yet.

i beta get g0in'..

~/a /a /a /a elmo's w0rld~

how can a loving god allow war n suffering?

2005-01-08T21:57:00.000-08:00

God loved His initial human creation so much

tat He gave mankind freedom

to make choices. [Genesis 2-3]

This freedom involved e choice of sayin

"yes" or "no" to an obedient,

yet personal relationship wif God.

e first two individuals He created both said "no" –

a decision tat subsequent generations of

men n women hae confirmed by their own choices

The Bible teaches tat evil originated

frm outside tis world (2 Peter 2:4, Jude 6)

n entered the human race through Adam,

whose disobedience in turn

affected all of creation. (Genesis 3:16-19)

Because we r by nature social creatures,

an individual’s activities r not limited to himself,

but always affect others.

Therefore, when we willfully choose to reject God

n go our own selfish ways, others will necessarily suffer.

When Adam failed to trust Him,

God could have begun all over wif a new creation

– one which did not have e option to accept or reject God,

like robots. But, while He restricts evil,

He has allowed evil to run its course

so tat individuals may voluntarily choose Him.

The climax of this great antagonism is tat evil

shall not rule in the universe forever,

but will be decisively and ultimately overcome by

God’s power in the future. (1 Corinthians 15:24-28)

However, the key question is,

"How will you use your free will?"

or, stated another way,

"What decision will you make regarding

Jesus Christ and His claims towards you?"

hougang sec campfire

2005-01-08T01:18:00.000-08:00

guess wad's e date todae?
hAppy 1 mth wif charmaine>
lame. my lao po.. where r u??!!
i'm gonna dump her. oOsp.
last nite's campfire was so so lah

due 2 e rain.. no fire. bleah.

was shifted 2 e hall.

did enjoy myself :)

my heart ached when jinghua

was toking 2 me abt sum stuff on e mrt.

i miss JH.

really need sum1 2 tok 2. hiaz.

went PS 2 get e cloth 4 e banner thingy.

bloody ex. arrh.

crystalene had chicken pox.

i'm gonna miss her.

JEr ish fuckin sick.

oh ps ps ps get well soon..

*pray hard*

kEep me busy ps..

2005-01-05T06:20:00.000-08:00

back 2 tuition?
okAy..yest was a maths
todae, phy.
oh well, sAt ish..chem.
sch ends at 2.20pm.
lesSon aS usual.
2 "big" thingy hAppen todAe.
1) fEll doWn e stAirs!
2) kAnA scolded by DM.
*muAhaha.*
dun laugh at me lAhh..!! i'll
BOX u!!
p00r cRystAlene..
hAn ping n y0ng ying loV 2 bully her~
guides-
practice e cAmpfire songs
at CD shelter.
(i lye e plAce!!)
anywAy, guides changed 2 thurs.
tis fri, hougang sec cAmpfire.
yeAh sia~~
loV cAmpfire....!!
loV singing....!!
one thing- it reAlly mAkes u relAx,
n tAt u can "throw" away all ya toubles..
n of coZ, hAe 2 stAy hAppy mAh..
life is short.
y nt live it to it fullest?
wAlked bAck home wif Diane.
she's quite a funny person actually.
slept 4 3hrs tis afternoon lehh..
4.30-7.30pm.
*sleepy heAd w0rx*
sch reopen means no more tv time.
arhh..cannot slAck le..
i'm scAred tat i might nt b able 2 cAtch up wif
all e "smart alex" in my class.
okAy le la..i g0 pAck my bag le..!
yeSh!!! tomolo PE!!!!!! yeshhh!!!!!
sA yo nA nA

bAck 2 sch.... stressful

2005-01-02T23:44:00.000-08:00

i cldnt sleep last nite..
it's alwaes liddAt.
bAck 2 sch..
1st thing, assemble at e hAll..
n i cldnt find my dear fren,
crystalene.
nx thing, i heard ms goh's voice.
for 2mths, i tot she didn exist.
n out of a sudden..
i hear her shouting.
i guessed all e sec1 must b tinkin:
" who ish tis mad woman? soo strict!"
gt a new VP. n my form tcher
ish a new tcher frm outer space. (ms yeo)
she sounded lye a robot (no offence)
attire check was okay, i expected tat.
ying xi became chairperson.
(kana sabo by gen)
n i ended up head of management?
(sabo by gen oso)
who cares anyway.
so, ms yeo was there toking abt values..
motto..n blablabla.
it's reAlly boring.
went recess wif my old "gang"
oh, miss them so much. hehe.
a maths tcher ish mr yap.
den he's there toking..
n we r there listening...
n e class ish rather quiet..
(except 4 gen)
tcher tok abt his expectations..
he said smt lye tat..
mr yap:” according to sengkang's
Tradition, all e4 classes did extremely well,
so ps continue
2 pass tis tradition on"
" did i chose e wrong class?" i tot.
sum more still need 2 write down our expectation
4 mid yr n final yr.
i wrote down A2 n A1 respectively.
Chemistry was BAD.
ms ong teaching mahh..
she:" u can keep all these bk in e lab or class. textbk no need 2 bring"
wahh.. so gd ar.....!
she:" okay.. Periodic table.. u must noe tis tis tis n tis tis tis
n tat tat tat n go n memorise. nx lesson test."
nx lesson = tomolo.
"huh" i said 2 myself.
i turned my head, everyone ish studying.
ok. *breathe*
when i left abt 5 elements more,
i turned my head, nearly everyone ish toking.
i felt soo stress..
phy ish okay lahh..
ms tan didn really tok abt anything impt.
sch ended at 1.45pm 4 me.
my other frens ended at 1.10pm.
dun u tink ish unfair??
guides meeting.
ermm.. okay lah.
i reAlly owe pei fen an apology.
i am sorry

i gt BLACKMAIL by my mum!!!

2005-01-02T05:18:00.000-08:00

arhh! i felt lye a stupid f00l.

kana BLACKMAIL by my mum.

okay..here's wad hAppen,

i gt a new fone..

den suddenly sum of e numbers dunno

flew where le.

okAy..i tot i was msging li jia..

but e fact was, i was msging jing hua.

i realised tat only when

i called her.

made a FOOL.

*breathe*

i ask her 4 pple's no. after soo much effort,

my mum said : " actually i'd copied out all ur no."

*arhhhhhhhhhhhh!*

of coz, i was dAmm bloody mad lahh.

okAy. den, mum blackmail me.

mum: " signed on tis paper"

i signed on e hardcopy she was holding..

den mum told me e conditions.

i felt lye a FOOL.

sign w/o tinking.

yeshh.. i went 2 watched "kung fu"

n i made a FOOL again

i flagged 4 bus 37 instead of 27!

omg. e bus driver stopped 4 me..

n i ran away!! FOOL FOOL FOOL.

movie was damm funny n of coz..

it's veri veri nice.

i dun mind catching it again:)

thk god 4 such a wonderful dae:)

movie..!! at last..

2005-01-01T01:38:00.000-08:00

do u noe i haven watched any movie

4 tis 2 mths?

do u noe i'm gonna watch "kung fu" on sundae?

do u noe tat i'm so hAppy.

oh.. u dunno.

veri well, now u noe.

~p1n9~ HEY I NOE MICHELLE 4 10 YEARS LIAO LE!!!

2004-12-31T08:08:00.000-08:00

okay. tat ish my nick.

it's 2005

i breathe 4 nearly 15yrs.

i noe michelle 4 10 yrs.

sch ish starting.

there's no wish 4 tis new yr.

sobsob* laSt dAy

2004-12-30T19:07:00.000-08:00

cum' on siA. lAst dAy?
there's still 2005!!
i l00k f0rwArd 2 2005 siA.
i l00k f0rwArd 2 skool.
i l00k f0rwArd 2 sec 3.
i l00k f0rwArd 2 seeing boys weAring
l0ng pAnts.
i'll lAugh 2 deAth.
slept ard 4am tis mornin'
i wAs chAtting on e fone..
4 abt 4++hrs.
of coz, i was using dAd's hp.
*evil smiles*
i woke up tis morning..
den i rmb smt..
coz sum1 ish askin wad i wanna b.
a lawyer?
a doctor? NO WAY!
teacher?
No.no.no.
tis ish wad i rmb:
(walkin' pAst a shop @ orchard wif mum
e other day, n we saw tis shop selling
only BLACK clothings)
i pointed 2 e shop.
me: mum, i want tis shop..eXcept i'll
turn it all purple.
mum jus smiled n looked at her
"oh so immature" daughter.
tis incident makes me smile t0oo.
Tinking of e disaster, which took away so mAny lives,
taught me 2 cherish my
love ones b4
they r all gone.
*Touch wood*
e LATEST DEATH TOLL:
123,188
n tis isnt a smAll number.
Does god wanna meet all
those 123,188 pple
URGENTLY??
huh? y ish he calling soo many pple
2 heaven so SUDDENLY??
heard tat tis boy- raniel
frm my sch
was injuried or smt..n lost
his family member.
g0d bleSs.
may 2005 gonna b a yr wif
NO DISASTER.
NO VIRUS! -Sars!
GD ECONOMY.
n e pple live in

HAR-MO-NY!

gd bye 2004

2004-12-29T19:13:00.000-08:00

nt reAlly gd bye..

c0z there's one more dae 2 go.

i wAnna stay out n celebrate

THE nAtion countdown..

but i bet mum wouldnt allow..

s0 i guess i celebrate at h0me.

2004 hae been quite an interesting yr 4 me..

as u can c frm my previous entry( 1st qns)

i actually learnt alot of new stuff..

n of coz, there's mAny ups n downs...

yaya..tat's life i guess.

hmm.. tis r wad i rmb 4 e whole yr..

-wont b in details.

lEt's tAke a l00k..

Jan: sec1 orientation cAmp. chair-person.

feb: thinking day. skit competition. barron.JH.

mArch: my bdAe.JH.

April: *look at e sky*

mAy: gt in2 trouble wif ms yAp. BIG WALK. preparation 4 campchallenge.

jUne: cAmp chAllenge!! PLTC-arh s.u.x. NYAA expedition.monfort cAmpfire. JH.

july:walkathon.speech dae. JH.

auguSt: nAtionAl dAe. sec2 leadership camp? JH

sEp:*look at e sky*

oCt: eXamz eXamz!! fencing.

n0v: iCe skAting. sh0pping!! benj.

deC: ATC. pioneer bAdge.WILD WILD WET. killer waves. new hp!!new bags!!JH.

wAhh haha.. tat's all i guess.

if i tink of summore stuff..i'll update.

yA indeed tis is one of e bEst-est yr i hAd.

oh no.. my hw. arh..

i'm still worrying abt my hw u noe.

did 3 articles le..left 7 more.

n i've been slping alot tis few days

due 2 e rainy weather.

i'm still feeling laZy lehh.. hElp!!

i figure out smt lAst nite:

(here's a story abt me toking 2 my soul)

-it's kana lAme.

hAnping: there's 1 thingy i figure out..

my s0ul: wAd?

hAnping: e christmAs present i spent hrs mAking...(pause)

my s0ul: belongs 2 e BIN.

hAnping: yah. u cAn reAd my mind. amazing! mAyb i shd flash tat down e toilet bowl too!

my s0ul: den, y r u still keeping it?

hAnping: er..erm..er..dun ask. u wont understand me.

my s0ul: wAke up siA. i'm uR s0ul. i noe everything. stupid!

hAnping: orh..reAlly? den wad shd i do??

(my s0ul whisper smt 2 hAnping.den, look at her)

my s0ul: scream those words in2 ur pillow n u'll n0e wAd 2 do.

(hAnping did as told) *note: i reAlly did tAt*

yup. wAnna n0e wad her s0ul whispered to her?

n0 wAy. ish nt 4 u 2 n0e..

tAt's a secret between them.

oh well, tAt's e end.

oh well..we broke up

-Arhhh..!!!! lAme-

2004 -cummin 2 an end :(

2004-12-28T20:38:00.000-08:00

What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?

many. high elements. build structure. camp challenge which rawks my world. sec1 camp thingy. (home run) pltc which suckz lye hell. ATC 04 rawks.. set up campfire. design n make own IXORA shirt. sec2 leadership camp. rafting which was unsuccessful. n of coz getting crazier during campfire n many many many more.

Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

er. no. i wanna get straight As nx yr. haha.

Did anyone close to you give birth?

neighbour counted?

Did anyone close to you die?

nope.

What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?

more close frens. b more hardworking. more totful n more sensible.

What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

there's really alot.. so i shall nt ans.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?

gt in2 3e4 bahh..

What was your biggest failure?

failure in lov

Did you suffer illness or injury?

SUN BURNT.

What was the best thing you bought?

erm..i dunno. nth i guess

Whose behavior merited celebration?

sky guides.

Whose behavior made you appalled anddepressed?

sumtimes.. myself.

Where did most of your money go?

shopping.

What did you get really, really, really excited about?

all e camps..campfire..tracking...aiyah.. all outdoors activities.

What song will always remind you of 2004.

the reason. manito song n all guide songs.1

Compared to this time last year, are you: happier or sadder?

well...much happier i guess bahh.

thinner or fatter?

fatter lah.. i eat n slp n eat n.....

richer or poorer?

poorer. hp bills.. arh. u pay 4 me okay?

What do you wish you'd done more of?

cherish my frens n lov ones...

What do you wish you'd done less of?

being depressed and slacking.

How will you be spending Christmas?

working.

Did you fall in love in 2004?

yah

How many one-night stands?

none.

What was your favorite TV program?

many. how i rmb?

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

haha. now dun hate le lahh.. e past ish already e past le worx..(yi ting??)

What was the best book you read?

ermm... i really dunno.

What was your greatest musical discovery?

dunno lehhhhhh

What did you want and get?

new hp. new bags. new wallet. more freedom.

What did you want and not get?

to paint my room purple.

What was your favorite film of this year?

cinderella story bahh.. harry potter?

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

hmm.. wad did i do?? orh..at mdm zurina hse. i'm 14 !!

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

beta grades..

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?

purple. purple. purple. no lahh.. jk!

What kept you sane?

diao~ everything?

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

zoe tay? taukif?

What political issue stirred you the most?

lee hsien loong's talk... Zzzzzzzzzz

Who did you miss?

erm...u.

Who was the best new person you met?

my daring chermaine. lolz!! orh new person..erm..joanne:)

Tell us a valuable life lesson:

live life 2 it's fullest.. n cherish frens n lov ones.

how 2 lose a guy in 10days.

2004-12-28T19:15:00.000-08:00

warning: i'm evil todae.

rmb me tellin' u abt "xiaxue" n her blog?

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2003_05_01_xiaxue_archive.html

read may 30, 2003

i was laughing lye hell!!

TEN THINGS TO DO TO MAKE A GUY LOSE YOU IN ONE DAY.

check tis out. u'll lye it.

*am i making advertistment 4 her?*

*oh ps. dun try 2 read my mind*

i dun wanna b a BITCH.

bitch = female dog

lolz!! jus crappin'!

ps dun read on

anyway.. U hae 24hrs 2 reply

b4 e bomb get exploded.

exploded = byebye

*evil look*

*i'm sure u're nt readin tis anyway*

n tis entry is nt 4 pple 2 understand.

but..who cares?

i'm kana entertaining myself here.

n i lye tat.

anyway, i tell myself tat

I'M NT GONNA CRY.

I"M NT GONNA TINK MUCH.

24hrs means 24hrs.

i dun care how busy u r.

i dun care even if u kana stuck in toilet 4 e

WHOLE DAY.

i dun care if u didn receive my sms.

i dun care if u're too lazy 2 reply.

i dun care if u hate me.

coz..

e reason ish

i dun wanna care.

yes. i confess u r e one i lov most.

MOST. okay.

but u r oso e one i hate most.

MOST. okay.

n u r e one i will nv 4get.

U r alwaes on my mind.

ok. now, tell me.. y did u read on?

rainy days

2004-12-28T01:14:00.000-08:00

warning:

tis ish gonna b long. dun fall asleep.

i love rainy daes.

yea. i do.. it's sooo

COLD.

n of coz, i love 2 slp during rainy daes.

so dun worry,

i noe wad 2 do lata

-sleeeeeeeep!

yup.

yest late afternoon was sucky.

bleahh...

i came over 2 his fren's place.

n took a pic while his playing games.

yuckz. e pic soo blur..!

he = NO1 neglector!!

** ps b thkful tat i didn gave u a tight slap**

(coz i'm too short)

**i only kick ur ASS. bleahh.**

(i'm violent)

alrite. of coz i was angry tat u

LEFT ME ALONE.

monopoly was okay lorr.

i love going 2 jail.

yea. i noe u r rich.

n u dun hae 2 b proud of tat okay.

IT'S ONLY A GAME.

aiyoyo. 1st u cant make up ur mind 2 go anot.

2nd u REFUSE 2 bring me 2 e bus stop.

WAIT. i dun wanna hear another LAME excuse frm u.

no1 neglector: no. it's raining si. i cant get sick nx week.

me: oh ps. i oso cant get sick

no1 neglector: den u rather 1 person sick den we both kana sick rite?

me: ...

i ended up sending him upstairs,

n throwing e slippers in2 e hse,

n kicking him. bleah.

SI BIAN TAI.

had 2 meet mum at orchard.

n i tink alot abt him along e way.

i finally cum up wif tis conclusion:

1) NT GOING 2 UR FRENS HSE Anymore.

yeah. n suddenly, i was sooo hAppy.

SERIOUS~!

lolz..

met mum at orchard mrt..

had sushi 4 dinner n we tok alot.....ALOT

mum bought me 2 bags.

*open ur eyes big* 2 bags lehh.

A PURPLE bag n a black bag.

*open ur eyes big* PURPLE leh.

michelle saw e bag todae. she saes it sux.

it doesnt matter at all. 2 me, it rAwks!!

gt back home last nite abt 11++pm. kewl.

cleaned e guides den todae.

( i wan home maker badge. i want PGA)

soo dusty! *ah choo* u lah. make me walk in e rain alone.

NO 1 NEGLECTOR. SI BIAN TAI. Arh.

heyy.. there's a CAMPFIRE on 7 jan 2005. hougang sec.

who wants 2 go??

* me! me! me!!!* okok. u. ok.

chatted wif amalina, arifah, jinghua n li jia

4 many many hrs.

wahh. 1st tym tok so much.

we had ALOT 2 tok abt.

had cup noodle 2gether..

den headed 4 cp. there, u played "true or dare"

haha. i lye e game.

*oh my god. ps dun tell e whole wide world*

haha. erm.. dare was interesting.

jinghua, li ljia n arifah gt 2 KISS e window.

*open ur eyes big big* KISS e window at compass point leh.

OMG>! lolz..

n jinghua had 2 hop 4 a certain distance. hahaha.

li jia had 2 shout "XX" name loud !!

*XX refers 2 sum1*

lolz...!! n of coz, we had a great tym.

n esp. arifah.. she was laughing lye mad cow wif mad cow disease.

huh? lolz... dots.

we tok so much till we didn noe wad 2 tok nx. ha.

so VIOLA. i'm here 2 tell u

i had a great tym.

erm.. tis entry isnt tat long after all.

bleah.

wad's e tym?

it's slping tym!!!

weeeeeeeee!!!!! yeah.

btw: slping ish my hobby!

milo freeze

2004-12-26T22:29:00.000-08:00

wad a title.

i'm drinking milo freeze.

n i LOVE it.

back 2 skool..Guides.

build gateway again:)

oh yeah yeah.

u noe e feelin' of accomplishing smt is..

so damm great lorr:)

i realised tat i'm getting

more tan. bleahh..

so ugly!!

n i'm putting on weight.

-even worst

went cp 4 lunch..

didnt eat much lahh.

on diet. haha.

was shopping..n i saw a

small lil teddy bear..

so..CUTE.

n i knew it, tat it's meant 4 sum1

n i wanted it BADLY.

so i asked 4 e price.

salesgal:"$18.50"

ok. 4get it...

yess..i'm earning money..but..

i cant spent them on tat bear rite??

did sum1 sae "yes?"

ok. so u agreed wif me lah. alrite.

guess i made e rite choice.

yest's charity show.

oh ps. can sum1 tell me y ish sly singing

"an jing" again?? no offence.

tay ping hui was so......Brave.

n e 3 babes squeeze in2 a box, which cant even

contain a tv.. was so......Amazing.

n e last part.. WWAH.

taufik singing "an jing" - wad a surprise.

can b e nx jay. lolz!!

sly singing Malay song..

thou' i dun understand.. but cld c tat he

put his feelings in2 tat song..

nt bad nt bad lahh.

energy didnt cum. but, they called.

sch ish starting SOON.

can u c those butterflies in my stomach?

bleahh.. wonder wad's sch gonna b lye.

i miss sch.

but. i dun wish 2 start soon.

coz i haven complete my hw.

ar haha.. ps. 10 newspaper article.

i did 1 onli. 1/10. err..

1 word 2 sae..

-LAZY!

i noe who's teachin' my class le worx.

e maths: ms ginny tay

a maths: mr yap

pure chem: ms ong

pure phy: ms tan

ok. i hae NO COMMENTS.

i mean 4 now..

but in e future..

i guess i'll hae lots 2 sae!!

tata peeps!

wad e F***

2004-12-26T01:23:00.000-08:00

dots. yest was christmas.

n today, i'm scolding F word.

dots.. *gt 2 reflect on urself gal!*

so wad e FUCK thingy gt 2 do abt ?

bleah. let's c.

i was sleeping.

bro:" jiejie..cum down play badminton lehh"

me:" wait ar..let me sleep"

bro:" okay..faster wake up den cum down play.."

n he left.

hey..!! i was taking my afternoon nap btw.

n tis irritating bro my mine ish disturbing me.

dots. i woke up, wash my face n went down.

bleah.. he was playing wif dad.

wad was i doin'?

-Watching them play.

dots. arent i suppose 2 play?

bro:" okay.. i play wif u.."

me:" i dun wan ya stupid rules please..."

i dun wan hear him sae.." SERVICE OVER"

n all those fucking stuff. it's irratating.

bro:" okay lahh.. no rules rite? use ur hand n play lahh..

use ping pong ball lahh..anyhow play lahh..who cares rite??"

tis guy gt AP todae.

i decided 2 ignore him.

dots. he giv me tat kind of face. yucks.

i scolded e F word.

rite in front of my dad.

rite in front of my dad i repeat.

dad:" where do u learn all tis frm??"

me:" u look at him lahhhhh!!"

bleah.. played wif dad den i fed up

n left. mayb i've AP todae too.

arhh.. okay. i talk abt nice things.

look at my room.

wahh hahha.. okay lah. it's nt neat.

but beta den b4. muahaha.

okok. kana sian e whole dae.

pack room. slp. badminton. com.

http://www.xiaxue.blogspot.com/

must check on tos blog.

sooo many viewers.

oh well.. tat gal gt really lots of stuff 2 tok abt.

yup. anyway.. i jus change layout.

oh well.. dunno wad else 2 sae.

zai jian.

merry christmas

2004-12-25T05:17:00.000-08:00

it's christmas.

FINALLY. it's christmas.

yeahh..

hAppy bdae jeSus..!

didn really enjoy christmas.

no party.

sum presents onli.

lots of sms frm peeps.

had 2 work 4hrs.

earned myself $20.

shd i yeah or boo??

bleah. spent my christmas wif e

"aunties" at sushi shop.

i had SUN BURNT due 2

yest's swimming.

PAIN n dAmm bloody RED.

was mad wif SUMBODY yest.

still quite angry..

alrite. i shall end here.

i love u jesus.

ty 4 dying on e CROSS.

i need..

2004-12-24T05:09:00.000-08:00

y am i blogging again?

nvm..

i need..

vitamin M

gonna work tomolo??

lazy lahh..

oh ps.... HELP.

i gt a sweet card tat makes no sense

, a oh so colourful watch

n a dull black colour hp strip.

here's a song.

The Twelve Days of Christmas

On the first day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

A partridge in a pear tree.
On the second day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the third day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Three French hens,

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the fourth day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Four calling birds,

Three French hens,

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the fifth day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Five golden rings,

Four calling birds,

Three French hens,

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the sixth day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Six geese a-laying,

Five golden rings,

Four calling birds,

Three French hens,

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the seventh day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Seven swans a-swimming,

Six geese a-laying,

Five golden rings,

Four calling birds,

Three French hens,

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the eighth day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Eight maids a-milking,

Seven swans a-swimming,

Six geese a-laying,

Five golden rings,

Four calling birds,

Three French hens,

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the ninth day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Nine ladies dancing,

Eight maids a-milking,

Seven swans a-swimming,

Six geese a-laying,

Five golden rings,

Four calling birds,

Three French hens,

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the tenth day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Ten lords a-leaping,

Nine ladies dancing,

Eight maids a-milking,

Seven swans a-swimming,

Six geese a-laying,

Five golden rings,

Four calling birds,

Three French hens,

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the eleventh day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Eleven pipers piping,

Ten lords a-leaping,

Nine ladies dancing,

Eight maids a-milking,

Seven swans a-swimming,

Six geese a-laying,

Five golden rings,

Four calling birds,

Three French hens,

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree.
On the twelfth day of Christmas,

my true love sent to me

Twelve drummers drumming,

Eleven pipers piping,

Ten lords a-leaping,

Nine ladies dancing,

Eight maids a-milking,

Seven swans a-swimming,

Six geese a-laying,

Five golden rings,

Four calling birds,

Three French hens,

Two turtle doves,

And a partridge in a pear tree!

12. 11. 10. 9. 8. 7. 6. 5. 4. 3. 2. 1.

BLAST OFF!!

ho ho ho

2004-12-24T04:10:00.000-08:00

arh. wad i type jus now.

GONE LE.

gone case.

WILD WILD WET.

fun.

"ULAR LAH"

shiok.

i love it.

"WAVE"

kewl.

"shiok pool"

fun. shiok.kewl.

wanna go again.

jing yi n jinghua

-fun 2 b wif

anyway. .

it's christmas eve.

yup. i wish sum1 was here.

merry christmas 2 all.

love ya lots!!

build gatewAy.. kewl huh?

2004-12-23T01:26:00.000-08:00

yah.. went back skool todae.

8am lehh.. oh man. i miss my bed.

haven been slping well lately.

c e dArk circles ard my eyes??

gosh. i look lye a panda. arhh.

in conclusion:

i neeeeed 2 rest.

chuang cheng(how 2 spell?) high scouts

came over n taught us

BUILD GATEWAY

4 nx yr campfire. yup.

e gateway ish damm kewl lorr..

n it's high. arh. high elements.

but i did tried 2 climb up.

yeAh..!! i did!

n i finally noe

BOWLINE (how 2 spell?)

went shopping wif jinghua.

tis gal ar...

hae damm bloody WEIRD taste.

no offence. oh.. she's unique.

*smiling 2 myself*

didn noe where 2 go..

coz s'pore sooo small.

den decided 2 go china town.

*i'm nt kidding*

yea. so we went OG. people's park.

n e shopping centres ard there lahh.

dots..! we went shopping 4 clothes.

den toys. den food.

jinghua ate at such hawker centre..

she's veri FUSSY lehh..

n i can tell.. e food sux.

nvm. she's e one eating it anyway.

ok lah. she's a nice fren.. must admit it lah.

oh yah. she sae i'm lousy at taking pic.

haha. she ask me 2 take a foto of e mrt.

bo liao rite? yea..

sae my foto taking skills de angle gt prob.

she gt alot 2 crap.

jus look at her blog n u'll noe.

wanted 2 go 2 JH's place.

in e end headed home.

coz he's goin 2 his fren's place.

oh well.. count me out.yea.

jus looked at my testi 4 him.

oh u noe smt..

it jus rAwks!!

*ok. i stop bhb-ing*

erm.. yahlah..now veri de sian.

oh yah.. gd news:

my room ish 3/4 packed.

i tink my christmas present 4 mum

ish.....

a neat n clean n tidy n cosy n blablabla ROOM.

yea. she's gonna lye it:)

even dad. i guess so bahh.

n tat will make her NAG lesser.

c..... i'm such a gd gal.

oOsp. haha.

*bhb again*

wad colour ish ur spirit??

2004-12-23T01:21:00.000-08:00

Pink: You have a very loving nature. Friendship and
loyalty are two things you value very much. You
love to be in love and people love being in
love with you! Confidence is yours no matter
what. You have such a caring personality, and
you probably have no trouble getting friends
because everyone is friends with you! You are
warm to everyone, and hardly ever judge people.
People are drawn to you because of your
kindness.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????????!!!!What colour is your spirit?(with great pictures)
brought to you by Quizilla

BUT i LYE PURPLE.. !!!
hey.. y isnt it purple?? lolz.
yea. frens r impt pple 2 me.
n i DO cherish them. yup! :)
thk god!! :)

dun live 2 regret

2004-12-22T01:18:00.000-08:00

...love story...

A girl in love asked her boyfriend.

Girl: Tell me. Who do you love most in this world?

Boy: You, of course!

Girl: In your heart, what am I to you?

Boy: The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said, "You are my rib. It was said that God saw that Adam was lonely, during his sleep, God took one of Adam's rib and created Eve. Every man has been searching for his missing rib, only when you find the woman of your life, you'll no longer feel the lingering ache in your heart."

After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a while.

However, the youthful couple began to drift apart due to the busy schedule of life and the never-ending worries of daily problems, their life became mundane.

All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away their dreams and love for each other. The couple began to have more quarrels and each quarrel became more heated.

One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house. At the opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!"

The boy hated her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for us to be together! You were never my missing rib!"

Suddenly, she turned quiet and stood there for a long while. He regretted what he said but words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back. With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in breaking-up.

Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let me go." She continued, "It is less painful this way. Let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners."

Five years went by...

He never remarried but he had tried to find out about her life indirectly. She had left the country and back. She had married a foreigner and divorced. He felt anguished that she never waited for him.

In the dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he was missing her.

One day, they finally met. At the airport, a place where there were many reunions and good byes. He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with just the security door separating them. She smiled at him gently.

Boy: How are you?

Girl: I'm fine. How about you? Have you found your missing rib?

Boy: No.

Girl: I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.

Boy: I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back. You know my number. Nothing has changed.

With a smile, she turned around and waved good bye.

Good bye...

One week later, he heard of her death. She had perished in New York, in the event that shocked the world. 9-11.

Midnight, once again, he lit his cigarette. And like before, he felt the lingering ache in his heart. He finally knew. She was the missing rib that he had carelessly broken.

Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury. Most often than not, the outcome could be disastrous and detrimental. We vent our frustrations 99% at our loved ones. And even though we know that we ought to "think twice and act wisely", it's often easier said than done.

Things happen each day, many of which are beyond our control. Let us treasure every moment and everyone in our lives.

Tomorrow may never come. Give and accept what you have today.Love everything,everyone ard u...dun let regret hurt n haunt u the rest of ur life...

i dReam

2004-12-21T23:39:00.000-08:00

i dream..

Verse 1:

In my mind

I can climb

All the mountains that surround me

My spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly

In my heart

There's a spark

That can light the world around me

An open door, where I am sure dreams are

Bridge 1:

doesn't matter if I win

Or the colour of my skin

Cause the race is all about

Believing in yourself

Chorus 1:

And I dream

I can run

Like the wind

And be strong

When my heart just wants to give in

I dream

I can be

The hero that's in me

I dream,

I dream

Verse 2:

there's a time

In your life

When the odds are so against you

There's no defeat, if all you keep is pride

First or last

Slow or fast

There's a dignity that makes you

Keep driving on, when worlds have come apart

Bridge 2:

doesn't matter rich or poor

Or the things you've done before

Cause the race is all about

Believing in yourself

Chorus 2:

I dream

I can run

Like the wind

And be strong

When my heart just wants to give in

I dream

I can be

The hero that's in me

When I dream,

I dream

Of a moment

That forever will be golden

When the torch is passed

Only dreams will last

That are shared by everyone

Chorus 3 & 4:

And I dream

I can run

Like the wind

And be strong

When my heart just wants to give in

I dream

I can be

The hero that's in me

When I dream, I dream
I

christmAs wiSh..

2004-12-20T18:43:00.001-08:00

did i blog yest?

*dun look at me*

i didn.

okok. i did.

it wAs burning h0t inside me...

n i decided 2 vent my anger..!!

but rite now, i'm FINE again.

so i deleted tat entry. sorry.

muAhAhAA...

i'm hAppy. yeshh..i am..

slept at ard 4.40am lAst nite.

wAtch lAte nite movie..

sms-ing..

doin stupid newspaper cutting.

e movie nt bAd lahh..

lye e ending:) geee..

oh yAh.. tis entry's title

"christmAs wiSh"

mAny pple hAe christmAs wishes.

becoz they r nv contented wif their life.

sAme g0es 4 me...

yEs, i Am hAppy. but, nt hAppy enuff..

coz, i'm a human too:)

*okAy. shAll st0p bein' lAme*

.......3 wishes........

1) 100% of "ur" heArt. nv 2 pArt..

2) EVERYONE 2 b hAppy.

3) gr0w tAller. i wannA gr0w. i wAnna grow grow grow!

yup. i STILL hAe new yr wishes cummin up s00n..

mAyb end of yr bAhh..

mAy my wishes cum true.

g0d bleSs me n U n U n U n U..

i mean.. EVERYONE!!

i gt a NEW fone.

2004-12-19T03:26:00.000-08:00

went 2 prAy 4 my ah ma tis morning.
geee.. onli yi ning was there n i wasnt close 2 her.
so nth much 2 tok abt.
so e adults were toking... THEIR own stuff..
n we were juz listening.
it's BORING okAyy..
my uncle said smt:" hey long tym didn c u. u've grown taller"
i nearly shouted out:" liAr!!"
haha. hiazz.. adults r adults.
am i sayin tat i'm a kid.
NOOO.. i'm a teen. n i love it.
after praying, mum n i took
e mrt back 2 cp.
den...
mum bought me new hp!!
yeAh. i FINALLY
gt a new fone.
met jiA ling at 7-11 after tat..
den hae a chat lorr..
haven c her 4 4yrs le worxx.
okAy lah. i miss her.
*oh do i??*
okAy. hmm..den went baCk home
n celebrate my dad's bdae..
19 dec~ yeA. i lov my dad.
my bro juz spoit my mood lorr.
cant even behave himself. arhh..
he spoit everything.
yea. den played badminton wif jia ling,
her cousin n my stupid bro.
arhh hahaha..

weird dreAm..

2004-12-17T16:30:00.000-08:00

woke up at 4am tis morning..

wif a big headache.

luckily manage 2 get back 2 slp..

n now here i am..

juz woke up...

had a weird dreAm laSt nite.

luckily nt a nite mare..

i wAs in tis BIG bIG skool...

den i headed 4 e toilet.

n passed by Ms Goh.

"gd afternoon Ms Goh" i greeted.

"gd" she said n paused, den continued

"gd morning. it's morning!!"

i smiled n walked away..

den i passed by mdm ng, but

didnt c her. did i c her?? arhh..

" wait cum back. u didn greet me! go n c ms mel."

arhh.. wad's hAppening..??

"okay" i replied.

finally reached e toilet.

there were 2 lil gals in there chatting.

i went in n den i left.

e 2 gals followed. i ignored them.

came out frm e toilet, heading back 2 my classroom.

i tried 2 avoid seeing any tchers..

n i did.

gt back 2 class. was chi lesson.

ms tay was saying sum jokes n e class was laughing away.

suddenly,

there was complete silence.

n sum1 tapped me on my back.

i turned ard. there stood mdm ng staring at me.

" u r suppose 2 c ms mel" she said.

den i dunno wad she said, but she made a fool of herself.

den... i heard mum's voice.

i looked ard. i cant find mum.

" ur hp! take it out rite now!"

" i didn bring my hp, really.."

lifted up my bag n place it on e table.

den i saw my fone de light.

"aiyah. my fone. i dunno y it ended up here.."

of coz, i was caught red- handed.

den i woke up wif a shock..

arhh.. i dun understand sum parts of tis weird dream.

n i dun wan 2 figure it out.

haha. having a headache rite now..

tink i beta get goin..

haven brush my teeth yet!

muAhAhA..

bye!

hAte being siCk!

2004-12-16T22:06:00.000-08:00

i'm siCk.
cAught a cold tis m0rning!!
lAst nite wAs s0oo cold..!!
eVen w/o e ait con on..arh.
hAd juz finish using up 1 WHOLE BOX
of tiSsue!!
haven broke my record yet..hehe.
lata goin 2 my BEST-EST pal, mic 's hse!
goshh.. she CANT STAND me sneezing!!
mum allow me 2 stay at her place till 9++pm.
tAt's s0oo sWEeet!!:)
spent my tym plAying silly com games
n listening 2 music..
geee.. i'm rEALLY BORED!

hookbastank- THE REASON-

i'm not a perfect person.
there r many things i wish i didnt do
but i continue learning.
i never meant to do those things 2 u.
n so i hae 2 say b4 i go,
tat i just want you 2 noe
i've found a reason 4 me,
2 change who i used 2 b
a reason 2 start over new,
n the reason is you
i'm sorry tat i hurt u,
its something i must live wif everyday
n all the pain i put you through,
i wish tat i could take it all away
n be e one who catches all your tears,
tats y i need you 2 hear
i'm not a perfect person,
i never meant 2 do those things 2 u
n so i have 2 say b4 i go
tat i jus wan u 2 noe
i've found a reason 4 me,
2 change who i used 2 b
a reason 2 start over new,
n e reason is u
i've found a reason 2
show a side of me you didnt noe
a reason for all that i do,
n e reason is u

"i've FOUND a REASON 4 me,
2 CHANGE who i used 2 b..
a REASON 2 start over new,
N THE REASON is YOU!!"

u get me?? u do rite, dun u?

another dae.

2004-12-15T21:50:00.000-08:00

alrite. it's juz another dae.

SIAN..rot at home all dae..

mayb lata gonna pack my room again

coz mum kept nagging..arhh..

so i gonna b a gd gal n OBEY her.

yest, joanne called n asked me out

tok 4 abt 15mins or so bahh.

den i asked mum..

me: can i g0?? please...

mum: where?? 4 wad??

me: sengkang met. church. celebrate christmas.

mum: NO!!

me: yy?? please... it's juz nearby...

mum: now ish nt e tym 4 religion n stuff... u r too young 4 all these.

y am i too young? i really dun understand my mum.

she cant change my mind set wad...

i believe in god. although she's a buddhist,

i respect her wad..

den y cant she respect me?? y??

den joanne ended up toking 2 my mum...

hiazz.. was quite disappointed lorr..

hiazz.. guess i gt 2 celebrate christmas at home tis yr.

hiazz.. so i tot sum1 cld cheer me up.

BUT.. i waited 4 e reply 4 so long.

NO REPLY.

tot sum1 cld chat wif me. hiaz.

so disappointed:(

WHERE R U??

if u ignore my msg,

i ignore u too.

tat's wad i tink lahh..

paiN..

2004-12-14T18:56:00.000-08:00

physical pain. arhh..

juz hAte e beginning of ____

EVERY MTH !!!!

tried drinking some hot water.

but still feel no difference!

help. e pain ish KILLING.

arhhh....

sometimes i really wished tat if

i were a.....

den life wld b much beta isnt it?

ha. ha.

erm..goin 2 skool at 12 noooon 2 help

pack those camp stuff.

toking abt camp.

it reminds me of yAn ting n e m0squito bite

n kayating n campfire n teambuilding games

n all sister guides n......

i miss camp.

oh yah, received yan ting de reply le..

veri touched sia..

4 "u"(u noe who u r) :

cheeer up lah..u tried ur beSt rite? so there's nth

much more 2 worry le..sorry 4 cursing tat u'll lose..

n gd luck 4 ya next match:) sure win de lahh..coz...

hae u mahh... hope 2 c ya sooon:)

saw tis msg?? sms me leh..

i'm so bored. who wants 2 entertain me??

*WAHHH* so many hands..

y am i entertaining myself?

stupid.

ju eng home

2004-12-14T02:38:00.000-08:00

yea. todae CIP at ju eng home.

yupz. helped out in e kitchen..

arhh.. fingers pain arhh..

worked frm 9 till 5pm lehh..

yeA. oso helped out in serving e old folks there.

geee.. n i gt hugged by one of them!

n another grAnny mAke fun of my nAme!!

arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! hAte it.

hAd ROTI PRATA lata.

yummmmmy.

cheese prata n paper prata.

full siA... muAhAhAhA..

jeremy ish dAmm hungry..

n i'm making fun of him:x

okAy lahh...

u noe wad i'm tinking now??

i dun tell u:x

okAy.

THE END

a new blog ish born.. hAppy bdAe 2 u~

2004-12-13T02:03:00.000-08:00

okAy. tiS ish my new blog.
*clap*
even such retarded cum lazy pple cld BLOG.
*WOW*
it's amazing isnt it?????
tiS iSh my 5th blog.
d0 u n0e y?????
c0z a retarded pers0n meSs up all my other blog.
am i refering 2 myself???
i shall st0p crap s0 muCh le.
c0z who noes SUMBODY might b reAding my blog!
rite? oh ya, btw, i'm refering 2 tat peron who
claims tat he's a lesbian.
hEy...*wAve*
u noe smt?? i'm a lesbian t00. hi5!!
muAhAhAhA...
yeA. juz cAme bAck frm ATC!!
it rAwks worx!!!
i'm beginning 2 lov guiding MORE each dae.
s00n, i'll put guiding b4 anything else.
(including U!!)
oh, tAt's so selfish of me.
dun worry. i wont do tat..
i'm missing cAmp.
arh. help!!
few days ago i was missing home.
now? i'm missing camp. funni rite?
oh yah.. 4gt 2 add tat i found myself a NEW wife.
let's welcome.......
CHARMAINE ho han yan!!!
yEa.. *clAp*
my veri new lao po..
h0pe tis wld mAke WAN TING jealous.
haha. jkjk.oh ya where's wan ting?
china? arhh.. i miSs u...
*looking blur* oh, do i?
muAhAhAhA...oh ya..gt piSsed off by an a*sh0*e
u noe wad hAppened??
tat person asked" how r u"
me: " i'm still alive"
tat person:" fine. den. bye."
hEy.. did i offend u??!
i went 2 JH's place todae.
yupz..WOW
hse soooo BIG!!!
n we didn noe wad 2 do.
play com till com siAo.
wAtch tv but nth 2 wAtch.
find f00d but n0 food.
aiyO.....!! but...
i lye JH's ROOM. plain.big. nice!!
yupZ......!!! thks 4 everything anyway:)
took bus 80 home.geee...
n saw aiyah 4gt wad ish tat gal's name le.
anyway, they having street-e at cp.
kewl hor. t00 bAd dunno where's joAnne..
or else i'll tell her i went somewhere near her place.
cant imagine tat "THEY" stay e same blk n e same floor.
aiyO. e WORLd iSh sooooo smAll..
alrite.. alrite..
i shAll end heRe.
gd byeeeeeee bloggie!!

enter my world..!! [ chiCken 0ut? ]

giving up

loading... 100%..

news news n more news

wad's wrong wif me??

weeeex

can u feel e pain in my heart..?

the SEC 1.. cAmpfire..!

baddie mood

swimming~

how can a loving god allow war n suffering?

hougang sec campfire

kEep me busy ps..

bAck 2 sch.... stressful

i gt BLACKMAIL by my mum!!!

movie..!! at last..

~p1n9~ HEY I NOE MICHELLE 4 10 YEARS LIAO LE!!!

*sob*sob* laSt dAy

gd bye 2004

2004 -cummin 2 an end :(

how 2 lose a guy in 10days.

rainy days

milo freeze

wad e F***

merry christmas

i need..

ho ho ho

build gatewAy.. kewl huh?

wad colour ish ur spirit??

dun live 2 regret

i dReam

christmAs wiSh..

i gt a NEW fone.

weird dreAm..

hAte being siCk!

another dae.

paiN..

ju eng home

a new blog ish born.. hAppy bdAe 2 u~

sobsob* laSt dAy